i did try....

i did try
but day wasn't my
as time goes by..i found no one to blame
to start a fight

fellin hollow from inside..
crises of tears
and ppls standing by

flow is not the part of me anymore
i can't just stare of which i am sure
need to move on
but dont undersatand what for
wanna go on a shore..to give my contribution
all i feel is deep distortion

crowd is not entertaining
but its a part
which we can't leave apart
but sometime it gives pain to your heart

life is a dream
which breaks when we die
thats why
............
........
i did try.......

a lot to say ,..very less to speak

We all have some questions...without answers... .

so , it goes this way

All of us have lots of friends,..and peoples around us,...and many of them care for

us.....we get pleasure and feel alive with them but somewhere in that crowd we all feel alone.......

it may be because we all want someone special for us...

the one who care for us more than anything in this busy world......

who is always for us and makes us feel special....and who is with us without any reason....and search

continues....

till we find a special one ....and many of lucky peoples get this also......

and be among those who are so called happy homosapiens alive on this blue planet but our mind is

beyond understanding.....

it doesn’t matter if we get that special one or not...but we always do care.....

whether he is meant for us or not...

the thing it knows is that we cant stop caring and loving .....ant its obvious phenomenon..it doesn’t need

any answer and the support pillar for love...'trust' is always there...

loving someone doesn’t need it in return...

no matter how many times we get hurt....and get broken from inside...

well, yes it makes a permanent mark on our heart, unhealed,..and uncured...which remains with us till

eternity....

and at last burn into ashes with us and our mere tears....they tries to heal our grief...unlike of the fact

whether someone deserves it or not...

our tears tries to flow away our pain with them and extinguish the fire of our burning heart....

all these things happen with all of us, sooner or later....but at the moment when we are into it,...we feel

that this is with us only...

its easy to tell someone how to overcome but when it is with us our mind starts a fight with our heart and

thus stops giving us response and so we give up...and feel lost in ourselves.....

but as a matter of fact our desires never dies...

the human greed and expectations are ENDLESS and infinite...

they are endless like an ocean...and no end seems so far god made our destiny like this only...

unanswered.

but questionable....

no doubt in this all are running for answers..

..but ....

what i feel......

I wouldn’t say that my life is a complete mess right now,
I am just so out of focus and my normal organized mind is cluttered and aimlessly wondering.
When I was still in school,
my goals were pretty clear and that’s to graduate and pursue my bachelor degree.
Now, though I have a fairly fun and stable college life,
I feel I am not using most of time and most of my talents to the fullest.
Despite that I can fairly identify certain aspects in my life that I don’t quite appreciate,
still my mind goes blank whenever I think of what I want in the future. My dream house, I guess, is just the only dream I have been constantly hankering and all the rest of my aspirations have changed due to the many changes I myself have also experienced.

life sucks

We're all trapped.

Each of us is stuck being who we are. Sometimes we fight to change ourselves, but

ultimately this has little effect. We can change what we do, but we cannot change who we
are.

If you're a happy person, you don't feel trapped. If you're surrounded by people who you
love and who love you, if you can do what you want to do in life, if you are at peace with
who you are, why would you ever feel trapped? You wouldn't want to change yourself, you
wouldn't need to try.

If you're a happy person, hey, you got lucky! Go back to the previous page, you'll find
nothing of interest here.

I am not a happy person. Maybe you're not either. Maybe you're too fat, or too thin, too old,
or too young. Maybe you're ugly and nobody wants to sleep with you. Maybe everyone
wants to sleep with you, but nobody loves you and it's all meaningless. Maybe your body is
fucked up and you're in pain all the time. Maybe your mind is fucked up and you're in pain
all the time.

So you struggle with all these problems year after year, and you're getting nowhere, and
you wonder if anything will ever change. And the unavoidable reality of it all is that, for you,
life sucks.

But of course you're not going to give up so easily, you're going to keep struggling to
solve your problems, to change yourself, to find happiness, wherever it is, whatever it is.
But still, life sucks.

And you see all these people out there who are blissfully free of your problems, and if they
can do it, there must be some way for you to as well. But they aren't doing you any good at
all, they don't understand what it's like being you, and what good would it do you if they did
understand?

So, the forces which created you, random or otherwise, have spoken. And they've
determined that, for you, life sucks.

where is reality???

so as in my first note, i tried to explain the life,.......but at times we feel alone, and want something good to happen with us,..

but it is never the same as we think,..we try to catch attention of someone...and at last get sick of it, might be its a candy for some ppls,...

but not for every one, especially not for whom, who think their life sucks,...

if you want something good from the other side, you need to give a hint,..but at times your hint is ignored completely and you cant help it also,..its always like this only,

some are god gifted, and they rules,......but who are not,...have to regret always,...song writers can explain their feelings easily , they have whooping creativity,...and thats why music helps......but it just helps...very far away from reality

where is reality ?????

where are the true emotions, every thing we see is fake,...and always was,...we cant read peoples mind

if you try to go close people find you creepy,...and if you keep distance than you are not in the list,....there is no way to came out of it

as its true that we all are trapped

i hate when my chance is given to others

i see it every day

and live with this fact

sometimes i wonder why we expect much from ourselves

but in reality we expect much because people with us or behind us, make us feel like this

life is not the reality itself

reality is in death

it doesn't disappoint you,...

DEATH IS THE ONLY SURPRISE, WHICH CAN'T SURPRISE YOU!